Have you ever tried to cross your legs comfortably with an orthodic boot on? It's not pleasant. Especially if you're a leg crosser to begin with, it becomes a very frustrating venture wherein you find yourself constantly shuffling your feet because, dammit, you just can't cross your legs.
I am now a little over three weeks past my surgery. Where I was feeling strong only a week ago, I have backpedaled into feeling weak (break for attempting to cross legs - dammit!) and, well, weaker. I keep having to tighten the boot because my leg muscles are slowly deteriorating from lack of use. My toes are starting to go numb again. Every so often I forget that all this has happened and I stand up and even take a few steps before going "SHIT! SHIT! SHIT! Crutches! No weight bearing! GAAAAHHHH!"
I have bruises everywhere. I have to take an asprin a day to keep the blood flowing freely through my non-stimulated leg and it's causing me to look abused. I bruise easily to begin with, so this is really disturbing to see. I have a bruise the size of my open palm on my good leg right under a knuckle-sized bruise on my knee, a series of small bruises on the knee of my bad leg from falling (and no, for the last goddamned time I'm not overdoing it, I fall. A lot. Katie = klutzy. I don't know why or how I'm so good at drawing blood because, really, I'm a hazard to myself.), a bruise under my left eye from an errant sippy cup that flew my way, and a bruise on the underside of my thigh from TRYING TO CROSS MY LEG OVER THE DAMNED ORTHODIC BOOT.
My legs hurt. My ankle hurts. I feel the difference in my blood when I try to skip the asprin. MAKE. THIS. STOP. I want it to be over.
I'm at the point now where I'm having to do a lot of things by myself and I'm more active than I probably should be. It's now that I need help.
I'm whining. This is not the post I intended to write, but it's probably the post I was supposed to write.
I just want to clean my house. I want to pick up my son and walk with him. I want to drive my car.
Most of all, I want to cross my legs in peace.
**Edited twice for shamefully blatant grammar mistakes**
So sorry you are uncomfortable! That must be a huge pain in the butt. I know what you mean though- I always cross my legs when I am trying to get comfortable and if I can't cross my legs because I'm wearing weird pants or because my daughter is on my lap, I just don't know what to do with my feet. Seriously....what am I supposed to do? Cross them at the ankle? Sit with my legs spread open?
ReplyDeleteps-thanks so much for visiting my blog. you actually gave me a brilliant idea. i'm just going to wear stuff around the store from now on (scarves, hats.....pants, shoes) and then just take it off when I'm about to leave.=)